That Room

He is waiting me in that sunny messy room
Sitting and looking at that cold book cover
He faced the wind and the waves,
dressed in black and white and armed by his teeth
I cannot go forward for what is not mine
That calm street remind me love, and it hurts my skin and bones

He knows me and loves me for my mind
I'd suffer forever if I had to combat the unseen
That pain warms my soul
Now I survive with the thought of a perfect man
All the memories make me company
And all the hope is not enough

He got up and went away
I do not know why I did not come
For loving him more than God, he supposed
But I can breath perfectly,
I did show him my interior tattoo, the one with a map for the free feeling

He has gone... It'll never be too late

O que restou

Cansada demais até mesmo para pensar
De onde veio esse tormento? Quero um alívio
Eles mentem por diversão
Eu nem deveria estar aqui
Vou fingir que eu não sei. Não vou me comparar aos demais
Eu deveria ter escolhido outro caminho
Abraços interrompidos, sonhos torturados. Com hei de encontrar forças?
Não posso acreditar em divindades. A força maior estar em outras mãos
Vou me esconder. Fugirei. Morrerei fisicamente
Eu culpo o acaso, que nunca foi meu amigo. Mas sempre me pareceu devastador
Não posso acreditar em castigo. Essas chicotadas sairam da minha fraqueza
E eu me pergunto: Por que eu morri?
A solidão é o que me veste melhor
A esperança estava atrás dos meus pensamentos cansados, mas eu já morri
O que restou? O que me resta é a sanidade mental

Querido M.

At first I’m writing you just to say how much I like you. That’s the objective. You don’t need to like me back, or even read this, but I would like you to. Thanks for make me love someone whom is on the other side of the world, thanks for showing me how good a person can be, and also thank you for keeping me in your life, thank you anyway. Sometimes people are strange, I am strange right now. I need you, I need anyone, I need someone I love, and I am sorry. Sorry if I am a problem, not my intention. I'm a problem in many people's lives, but will not be in yours, sorry. I realized that I was not good enough when you deleted me from your facebook, in a way I think that was the right time to go away of your life, sorry for have continued. I hope you can forgive me. I'm not okay, this is not your problem, I just want you to know that you mean a lot in my life, because you are a beautiful person and always will be. But now I can not expect anything from anyone, I apologize for even that time you're reading this. I'm not saying you do not care about me, just wanted some attention. Perhaps this is your way, you may not have the time, so many ‘perhaps’ that comes to mind. I know nothing of your life, love, I know, I wanted to know but do not know. I do not blame you for anything, just thank you for showing me how much my heart can be strong. I just wanted a reason to keep on loving you, but I can not see that reason, I'm sorry, forgive me, but I do not feel that you love me how much I love you. Baby, I gotta tell you again, I will not be a problem in your life because I love you, because I want to see you happy and I wanted to be part of it, but I feel it is impossible. It hurts so much to think about you, Sorry for being weird, sorry for sendind you thousands of messages on the phone. I just want you to know this is called love, and I wish with all my heart that you love somebody that loves you back and make you happy. You’re an angel. That is all, love. I want you to know how much you mean to me and I'm not a problem. But please tell me if you don’t want me in your life, please tell me to go away if you want to. It hurts to wait a message or even attention, I cry everytime you don’t reply me. Please tell me what you want. Because it is hard, it hurts, I cry. Take care, baby! Love you!

About Magic

I jumped into the river of sense of life
I expected to die of sadness
He spoke about what I could find in that road
It's all lie what he told about magic
I only can show forgiveness with all my heart

'Mind is a field of battle' he warned me
'A war that you cannot be the winner' I replied
There are millions of rivers of distress, oceans of answers, waterfalls of sorrow
But our King don't apologise, not even in the last breath

It burns like poison through my veins
I told him it is not a pity the end of everything
We still can pretend in this Evil place
I jumped into the sea of the unknow
All I hoped was to be face to face with you
You owe me my dreams of reality and mercy
I command you to start begging me, because this endless pain belongs to you